The Affect of Poetry (Series 1-Anything)

“I will do anything together, anything to get her….so I’m going to take u there, I’m going to take you there, so I would have to make you come.” -Q-

As I sit in my car and watch her walk into her house just think about the conversation we just had. The only thing I can think of is; why am I feeling this way? Every time I’m around her my dick gets hard. She makes me laugh, personality of being a headache but also considerate (Sour Patches, sour but sweet!) They way she walks in those skin tight jeans makes her hips rock left from right. But before I can continue on about why I am feeling this way, let me start from the beginning.

Diamond (co-worker) invited me to her barbeque on Saturday. I told her that I had to work then I will swing by to make my appearance. Everything is going as planned, left work on a good note because it is was my last day; the young adults weren’t being difficult this time, jus filled up on gas, now have to wax the vehicle itself. After an hour and an half of waxing and cleaning the car inside out, I decided to take a brief nap. An hour went by now so I’m headed to jump in the cleaners. I had to pick out some Roc–A-Wear black/grayish jeans with a polo shirt and some fresh black timberlands boots.

I arrive at the barbeque and me being me (cool, calm, and collected) I observed the atmosphere very cautiously. I acknowledge the people I knew from work and greeted people who I haven’t seen. As I was talking to Diamond, I seen this beautiful girl from the time she was at the top of the stairs till she hugged Diamonds family members. My first impression was “shit, ok” She has on black gymnastics stretchy tight pants with a mini jean skirt over it, with a checker white and black shirt and a pair of black Vans! Diamond introduced me to her and she said that her name was Toya. I didn’t want her to get the impression that I was all over her, so I gave her space. I went to the cooler to get a corona; after I got my corona Diamond approached me to play spades. I replied with: “Sho-Sho-Show me my opponent!” I really didn’t care who my teammate was, just the fact that they hold their own. It was me and a coworker of mine, Matt, against Diamond and Toya. Two games went by and each team had a victory. It was the tie breaker and the recap was 44-42 Diamond and Toya up and we are going to 50 (500). They went six (6) and we had to go eight (8). When all the cards played out and I looked across the board, we both had five books each. With three (3) cards left, Toya threw out a deuce of diamonds, so I topped that with the little joker and Diamond didn’t have the big. Two more books left and Matt was trumped with the big joker and two (2) of spades. After a long fought battle Matt and I came back and one. Diamond decided that she wanted to the bar. We all agreed to meet up at the sports bar!

Conversation was on point, Matt cracking jokes about the job (about how two co-workers was talking about each other being ugly…LOL) and Diamond bringing up throw back movies (all the PORKY’S (classic)). While everybody was having there group conversation, I was off to the side talking to Toya. It’s late and we decided to call it a night. Toya and I swapped numbers before we actually departed from each other.

A couple weeks went bye, we haven’t got up yet. I’m thinking to myself like damn, what is wrong with this woman? Having all these text messages are nice to have but I can’t see her. Our text conversations are on point because we both get irritated when the other doesn’t respond in a timely fashion manner! She says that she wants to see me but doesn’t have the time. I told her that if we really want to see each other, we can find a way because there is only 24 hours in a day but we can squeeze 25 hours in. One day I asked her let’s go see a movie? She replied with a “NO”. I brushed it off like maybe she has something to do that came up. She claims that she was getting up with her friends but who am I to judge. Is there somebody else? Shit either she is just a busy person or she’s determined and knows what she wants. She can’t be in a relationship based on the facts of the things we be discussing in the text messaging and the time of hours she be hitting me up. I guess I can take that into consideration but I don’t want to wrong right this time.

I get a phone call out the blue at 10:36p on a Tuesday that Toya wants to get up. I dropped everything that I was doing and got ready. I picked her up at 11:54p. She said that she didn’t care what we do, she just want to have a good time. To me that statement seemed like something was bothering her. We went to the beach and walked the pier. She said that her ex-boyfriend yoked her up. My mouth just dropped (why would a male put their hands on a female?) We got into the conversation with how he end up putting his hands on her and she said words were exchange. As I am doing less talking and a lot of listening, I picked up that they have known each other since grade school. Just recently started getting serious, been together on and off for 4 years. She don’t live with him and to top it off he was her first. That last statement made it clear that she is going to have a force field up. I’m thinking to myself like “Yes, a challenge, who shall survive and who shall parish.” We go off that topic as quickly as I missed a turn! We continued out conversation from the party. I told her that I was leaving in 2 weeks to go to Maryland for a job. Giving her my resume that I needed a better challenge and New York wasn’t challenging enough, hoping that she will read between the lines. I dropped her off at her house round 1:11a. She gave me a hug and said that she had a good time. We have to get up again.

On Saturday (same week) we went to the movies. Everything was cool. Grabbed some candy and pop (soda) with some popcorn. The movie is good because it’s keeping my attention and Toya. She feels so comfortable that she takes her shoes off. I have a feet fetish so I have to check for my damn self. The thing that surprised me was that she was welling to show her feet and come up not come up with an excuse. There was not paint on the toes, just cut right and soft. She is leaning on me and feeding me popcorn, but she slipped when I put her fingers in my mouth. When I guided her thumb, into my mouth, and started sucking on it, I looked to the corner of my right eye and seen her get adjusted to her seat. Soon enough she wasn’t moving but breathing heavy cause of her chest. I asked was she ok and it seemed that she was in a daze based upon how fast she took her thumb back.

We have been talking for a minute but I never forgot about her ex. We are not fucking and I know that a woman has needs. I picked her up from her house and we went to get some ice cream. We were talking for a minute in the car and I had to squeeze in the question! “When was the last time you had sex?” She replied with 2 weeks ago. I couldn’t get mad at her but not on the fact that I was getting ass myself, but the fact that she was still fucking her ex boyfriend. So I have to really step my game up. Thinking about myself…yes, whatever it takes to get her with me! I expressed my feelings to her and she replied with I feel the same way. It’s just that she has a bond with her ex that she wants to break, just don’t know how. One side of her she wants to leave, the other is saying that she put so much into there relationship/friendship. I asked her honestly. Do you want to stay with him or not. So she said “No” I said ok, don’t worry no more.